CATHastrophic Mediocrity

Arcade and PS2 - It was only recently that I found out my new addictions and with this, I call for revenge. (LOL) I had the feel of playing Jin’s character in Tekken 5. I’m not a gamer before - or maybe a little during my Half-Life and NFS Carbon days way back college. I was amazed with myself that I am into these stuff recently. After I was late in our class (during college) for almost an hour because of gaming, my barkada decided to make me quit. And put me into exile from leagues. Maybe they saw this addiction coming. So now, I think, I owe it to them that I had a decent graduation from college. Hehehe.

Bazaar - My second addiction. When I was still in Davao, I didn’t appreciate the affordable buys I can find in bazaars. When I had the taste of my first real salary, I was dying to find a bazaar in Cebu. There was this small bazaar in SM that I found interesting. Jewelries and accessories with their queer designs. A headdress perfect for a masquerade ball. There was this stall on the left-hand side that sold different types of jewelry - from rings with oversized stones, necklaces made from a variety of materials, to headdresses. And I was very interested with their designs - I might just visit that stall again. I found this cool bag from Ilocos that looks like a round colorful bilao. It was there when I decided I just have to buy a new dress. It was also there when I got this beautiful necklace. My zodiac sign (Dragon) put into a prism-like glass container working like a compass. So cool that I love it. When I was on my way to play PS2 in Ayala, I also found this spot where they sold items on sale. From dresses, blouses, and casuals, to fancy jewelry. I have to visit that spot again.

Ice Blended Coffee with Extra Espresso - I really don’t know what had gotten into me last night that I had this drink at dinner and another one at 12:00 midnight but still managed to drift into a dreamless sleep in an instant last night. I had a "taste test" of my favorite ice blended coffee I found in Bo’s, compared it with Starbucks, and Coffee Bean. Bo’s was better though. I still miss the chocolate truffles I had in Starbucks last year. Not so sweet and a little bitter. Just right.

Healthy Food - After I had a visit to the clinic last week, I was forced to be addicted. Addicted to healthy food and strict diet for two weeks. And it had always been a trouble for me to find the food I am allowed to eat. It is not the question of "What do I want to eat?" anymore but "What am I allowed to eat?". Only for the treatment period though. So with limited choices of real food, I was forced to eat fish which I really hate before. I ended up eating only salads, pasta and fish (with no cheese please!). Poor me. I can only count the days when I had a one full meal.

I have to go back to work. Time’s up…

by Apo Hiking Society

Show me a smile and then kiss me
tell me you love me again
come to my room and then lie in my bed
i love you, you know
although sometimes it just doesn’t show

[interlude]
Giving is my way of loving
it’s the only way that I know
i’ve got nothing much
i’ve got nothin’ to show
i love you, you know
although sometimes it doesn’t seem so

[refrain]
Love me forever
love me all night through
love me for a lifetime
i live my life for only you

[adlib]

Love me for a lifetime
i live my life for only you

Show me a smile and then kiss me
tell me you love me again
come to my room and then lie in my bed
i love you, you know
although sometimes it just doesn’t show

2010 had just began. A crab curry which cost around Php600.00 was a good start. Talk about forced feeding! (Patay naman gud.. Hehehe.. It was a good laugh.) 

Anyway, I possibly can’t begin this year without mentioning a few people who had been with me during the last year. 

Of course, I have to start the list with my parents. The cry-baby daddy, and the cool mom. When I had my vacation in Davao, I was quite surprised that they started mentioning calories, carbohydrates, starch, proteins and fats during our dinners. Just when did they learn to be diet-conscious that even my fifteen-year old sister can’t stop thinking about how many calories she’ll gain eating pasta and rice at the same time? Duh.. Hehehe.. 

Second is my hubby Bernard. He made my vacation enjoyable. He had been so understanding, considerate and very patient with me this past year even though we rarely see each other now. I thought I’ll never find a serious guy like him but when he met my parents during my vacation (after many months of convincing me) I can really say he is really serious. We’re actually planning his vacation here in Cebu soon, and I think he’s considering to move here and work. It’s something we both look forward to.

Third is my barkada. Eljim was so funny. He said he was working in Cagayan, but he appeared at my doorstep the next day. He intended to surprise me but ended up being lost in our neighborhood. Mark’s attempt to make me treat them to Picobellos was futile and we all ended up eating McFlurry on our way to the park.We did the things we usually do before like long walks in the downtown, and mall-hopping. I’ve been with this barkada for almost three years already, and I still love them. Even though I’m the only one in the group who works outside in Davao, still they are there for me waiting. To Noli, Jim, Greggo, Mark, Athan, and Nelson, thanks for the visit.

Lastly, the AWS peeps. I’m new to the company and they’ve been a great help to me in my tasks. Here I met good people like my Batch 13 batchmates. My new-found bro Jedd, Kevs, Tiff, Danf, Ceff and Ish. Juf and I were able to stand our differences and I’m happy with it. Ate Shie and I had fun during the contest. My kapanalig when it comes to bags and shoes. (Talk about shopaholic tendencies!!!) And Kuya Ames/Miel - the Big Bully - for the afternoons spent in Bo’s for Mocha Froccino with Extra Espresso Shot.

It was a year well-spent. Thank you guys.

It had been a long time since I last stayed at home alone. I’ve been missing my lazy Sundays way back in Davao when I can still hang out in my bedroom, read novels, or go to my barkada’s apartment and hang out. Let me see. What do I usually do in my Sundays?

• Wake up at 6am.
• Feed the lovebirds.
• Play with my kittens.
• Cook breakfast.
• Raid my closet.
• Throw all the piled junk in my desk.
• Start a new project.
• Sketch and design.
• Arrange the books in the shelves.
• Check out pictures.
• Read the mystery anthology book.
• Do journal.
• Water the plants.
• Weeding.
• Date with my hubby.
• Watch movie.
• Eat out in Mandarin.
• Hang out in MTS.
• Call up the barkada.
• Hang out in the apartment.
• Play NFS or CS.
• Play basketball.
• Eat buko ice candy.
• Walk in the downtown.
• Play guitar with barkada.
• Jamming session.
• Sister bonding moments.
• Get my nails done.

This night, I was lazing out when I had a chat with Sir Ken (Moushigo) through Skype, a person I knew way back my Jairosolution days. Well, we kept chit-chatting until he forwarded me a link. I love the lyrics, the song itself by Nine Inch Nails. He tells me that it helps him ease out before he gets burned out. Here goes.

Everyday is Exactly the Same

I believe I can see the future
Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
But then again
That might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now I never make a sound
I just do what I’ve been told
I really don’t want them to come around

Oh, no

I’ve always been an Angelina Jolie fan, and guess what? An upcoming film is heading our way this July 2010. Angie portrays the character as an agent accused as a Russian spy. You might just as well take a look o this trailer for yourself.

I woke up with a very light feeling. I slept around two this morning and woke up at six. The dogs next door just kept on howling. But I slowly drifted to sleep while reading a good book. A good book had always been indispensable for me. It’s Coelho’s.

Anyway, today is another better day. Have lots to finish, and I’m looking forward to accomplishing my tasks before 5:30pm comes. Hehe. There are important things I have to do tonight. 

Ja ne.

As usual, I’m in my writing and surfing mood this night. My hubby just snored his way out of our conversation over Skype, so I might just as well share to you a thing I’ve read while surfing the Net. Link here. I’m gonna keep this short and simple to save you your time. Here goes.

I’ve been with my guy for more than a year already. And he was the longest one I’ve been into since I first learned dating and stuff. I don’t really know what made us stick, but this article did gave me an idea why. I am just so grateful that neither of us had gone overboard with our imperfections. Some of you may relate to this.

A couple may break up because of the following habits:

1. Having an affair with his ‘potential’ - We girls and guys are so dreamy in finding our perfect match. We all get into a relationship because we love the person as he is. The scheme of having a Personality Makeover to make him/her match your ideal dream partner will only lower his/her self-esteem, simply because you’re telling him/her that they’re not good for you.
2. Major mood swings - Being a girl is an acceptable alibi when one has a mood swing. (Count my hubby in. He frequently has one.) But why don’t you try to stop and think things over? It may have a very big effect when one or both of you take out stress on your relationship when it really doesn’t have anything to do with it.
3. Gossip - It’s pretty normal to share with friends what you’ve gone through with your guy/girl. But having the first intuition of texting your barkada or calling your mommy to share your problem without even consulting your partner is explicitly a big No No. He/She may even feel he/she had been judged by someone else. Your problem is private thing to keep. As much as possible, work it out together. And please, forget the word ‘blame’.
4. Melodrama - We girls are so melodramatic. Admit it. Unfortunately, the guys, inately, are lazy trying to keep up with it. It’s really tiring to work hard pleasing and calming someone down.
5. Mom-ing him - Your guy is not a kid anymore. That means he doesn’t need someone who’ll hover above his head, tryin’ to tell him what to do and how to do it. You’ll give them an idea that you’re being a control-freak over him. 
6. Too much together time - Men, they say, are attracted to secure and independent women. Being too clingy with your guy gives him an idea that you can’t survive without his constant pampering. Men need more space than we do. And there are things he would want to do alone wihout you in the scene. In this way, you will also have time for your self, not only letting him miss you but also be the independent woman you were when you first met.
7. Jealousy - A little bit of jealousy is alright in a relationship, but getting overboard is like putting a red flag over your head for another war. That means checking on him every now and then, questioning his whereabouts and etcetera. Not only are you telling him that he can’t be trusted, but you’re also making him believe he is being controlled and manipulated.
8. Getting too comfortable - After spending a long time with your guy may make you very comfortable with him. Although the idea that he accepts you for whoever you are is a good thing, we should always remember that a good romance will always do the magic of keeping love alive. Every man would want to feel important and one way is putting up an effort to please or impress him. Not only are you feeding his ego but you’re also boosting your own confidence that the relationship will go a long way.