CATHastrophic Mediocrity

Last week, I concluded my weekly posts with "Twenty Things I Always Forget". This time, to balance it all, I want to squeeze my brain again in trying to remember the twenty things I love most in me. (Just a while ago, I had this very aweful dysmenorrhea. Thanks for that guy who bothered to come here and bring me the med I need. It’s a big relief and I’m back to work). Anway, to start the count, here goes….

1. I love the way I make lambing to my friends that they always end up giggling or speechless.
2. I love the way I bully them, that they laugh at me.
3. I love the way I try to sing my lungs out when I’m in the kitchen.
4. I love the way I savor the moment of being alone, thinking things through.
5. I love being happy even when the world is going against me..
6. I love how I write poems; every line is truth to me.
7. I love saying I love you’s and compliments to my friends and family.
8. I love every morning I wake up to, because I’m greeted with hugs and kisses from my parents.
9. I love the way my sibs and I fight because at the end of the day, it’s like nothing happened.
10. I love reading books, especially mysteries and tragedies, and novels with sense.
11. I love scribbling down notes about thoughts, and anything that pops out of my head.
12. I love making portraits and caricatures of people that are important to me.
13. I love playing with numbers, and making fun of it.
14. I love learning something I don’t know and making use of it.
15. I love imagining what I want my future will be.
16. I love how I try to control my temper when someone’s driving the hell out of me.
17. I love being who I am, and saying "Who cares?" even though it means turning against the norms of peers and society.
18. I love my friend, the "PUPPZ", my girlfriends,my bestfriends because they are the ones who pick me up when I lose myself.
19. I love my family who had been with me all my life, turning my anxieties to assurance.
20. Lastly, I love myself, who I was, I am, and will be.

Well, that’s it for now. I’m thinking of one good topic. I’ll post it soon. Xiao!!!

Half of Me in Black-Beautiful Mediocrity-Perfect Dash of Red

I still have at most three hours in this office for today. And I’ve finished the tasks given by my most considerate boss. I tried to be a little bit more ‘makulit’ in asking more tasks from him because my afternoon will be a sure bore if he won’t give me. And now, I’m pounding on my keyboard because he didn’t give me any. Darn!! We’re both to end our service here in this company by next week. He’s off to finding a new job, and I’ll start getting busy with school. Although he may be annoying sometimes, we’re both getting fond of kidding each other. But anyway, I’m not here to talk anything ’bout him.

Before I drift away from my objective in this entry, let me tell you that lately, I’ve been thinking what I did last May 19. I simply can’t remember what happened that day that someone here just kept on jesting me about it. It made me think of my attitude, my vice - forgetfulness, or temporary loss of memory. Hmmm?? It’s the thing that I love least in me(can’t dare to say I hate it because it’s still me and myself I’m talking about). So I thought of trying to squeeze out my brain in trying to remember at least twenty mistakes I love doing over and over again because I always forget that I’m not supposed to do it again. (Lately, I’m having trouble of keeping my introduction short.) Here goes…

1. I always remind myself to clean my study desk and keep my files in order, but I always forget. The pile in my desk may be at least two weeks old before I get the chance to clean it.
2. I keep a list of Things-to-do but I always lose it and my schedules and tasks become a jumble.
3. I always forget to turn off the lights in the comfort room everytime I go out.
4. I always forget to add salt in my sunny-side-up and kinilaw (but I still love it).
5. I always forget that I’m boiling water for the thermos, and I go straight to bed. Luckily, someone else always turns off the stove for me.
6. I always forget that I’m supposed to rise at six to avoid traffic.
7. I always forget to sleep by 9:30 and get an early rest.
8. I always forget to set a meeting for the orgs in days I reserved for them.
9. I always forget to return calls and reply in my received SMS.
10. I always forget to send important correspondence, and my load runs out before I have the chance to remember.
11. I always forget to set my own personal deadlines to follow my own resolutions.
12. I always forget I’m not supposed to tell personal truths to anyone I don’t know if I can trust.
13. I always forget to choose people who I’ll give my trust to.
14. I always forget that forgiveness shouldn’t be given that easily when someone says a simple sorry.
15. I always forget to set a demarcation line in my guy’s freedom, and I always end up crying because of another failed relationship.
16. I always forget that I should strive to be perfect but I should not be.
17. I always forget that I’m human and prone to mistakes, hurt, and imperfection physically, mentally and emotionally.
18. I always forget to let my emotions flow, feel it, and go over with it. Move on.
19. I always forget to love myself first in every thing I do, and let that love be felt by others too.
20. Lastly, I always forget to be who I am, and who I want to be.

Let’s see. I think I spent a good hour trying to remember all these things. And maybe someday, I’ll learn how not to forget and remember all that I’m supposed to remember. (Where are my thoughts getting me to?) Don’t worry. One of these days, I’ll tell you what are those that I love most about myself and the world. Maybe, my thoughts are not in order today, because of this boredom. Ciao..

I feel like my brain is getting dried up already. I’m not in the mood to work. I am supposed to finish my quota and get my objectives done for today. Review the entries made and do another set of 150 for today. I still have five hours to do so. All that are left for today’s quota is a hundred and maybe I’ll add another set of 50 if I’ll finish the hundred by 3:30. If I get all these done, there will be six hundred more to do for this entire week. I just can’t wait to finish these.

Maybe my friend is still having his siesta, and so I don’t have someone to chat with. The other guy may be busy that he misses to drop by me in the YM. Nothing’s really coming into my head. What will i say next? I don’t know. Maybe if I have the guts to tell the whole world that there is this guy who can’t really help but annoy me, then I’ll spend my whole afternoon just telling you how annoying he is. I just don’t know why I’m pissed off by his mere presence. And I hate it when he calls me "HOY" early in the morning, as if I don’t have any name. Doesn’t he know it’s rude? He’s simply losing his manners, assuming we’ve been friends for a long time and it’s okay with me. Definitely NOT……….

Tonight, I’ll be having a meeting with the PSITS people, especially the President and External VP. I’m about to present to them the breakdown of the registration fee for the whole academic year. We also have to discuss important matters about the SEC Registration and the documents needed. Speaking of documents, I also have to work for the coming national convention of Students in Free Enterprise.

Have a lot of things to do, but I don’t really mind because this Saturday, I’ll be going out with my friends and have a little bit fun. Summer’s soon to end and I don’t want to miss out the chance of having to enjoy the sun with no problems to think of. Two weeks ago, we went to a pool and spent the day in the water. This weekend we’ll play the sport we barely had the chance to play this past months. Hmmm… quite excited..

Just this afternoon, we feasted on three gallons of ice cream. Yummy!!! I think tomorrow would be another  feast because it will be my co-worker’s birthday. God bless him. Anyway, I still have eight more days to work here in this office. And soon, I’ll be out finding another means of income. Maybe some home-based writing job, or any other fun stuff to do.

Another day is soon to end. An hour from now, I’ll step out from that door and head straight to the meeting. An hour later, I’ll head for home. And be in bed after an hour, or maybe spend a couple of hours first for texting. Hehehe.. Bye-bye for now.

I’m going to spend the next couple of weeks working here in the office. And I also have to attend to important matters at school during my Saturdays. I’m going to expect a four-day vacation after work(lucky to still have one) and a full-blown first semester. Still have loans and fees to pay. Have a lot to think about.

The Bitech Magazine has to push through. I’m the Associate Editor and I’m on the hunt for the next editor-n-chief. I hate the idea that I have to give up my being EIC because of some other priority (or maybe because the rules tell me that I should???).

The Philippine Society of Information Technology Students - Region XI (PSITS - Region XI) just had its new set of officers in the later week of February. Elected as VP Internal, I’ll b working with students from other schools. We’ll be having our meeting tomorrow for the SEC Registration, Consti and By-Laws, and of course, the planning of events. I was very disappointed when I wasn’t able to make it to the Samal Getaway last month.

Tomorrow, I’ll also be meeting the moderator of Society of Information Technology Education Students (SITES) for a very urgent talk. August last year, I resigned from Presidency because as a Commissioner I have to abide by the CBL of the UIC COMELEC. It is clearly stipulated that a commissioner is not allowed to handle any other major office in the university. And so, I withdrew from my office.

Speaking of UIC COMELEC, being the successor of Ms. Katherine Dacanay as the Chairperson, I would be held responsible for the approval of the different resolutions in the Legislative Board. One of these is that the UIC COMELEC must have a commissioner from every program. Last academic year, we only have Commissioner Carlo Culanggo in the Annex Campus. It would be unfair for someone to do all the job in a campus. Aside from that, a Deputy Chair will also be appointed. One important thing to consider for next year’s election is how to address a circumstance when a lone candidate for an office did not garner majority of the votes. Last year, the candidates who had this kind of result were also proclaimed albeit they didn’t win the vote of the majority.

By next semester, I’ll also apply for editorship in The Collegiate Immaculatus, the university paper. They once invited me to be one but I never had the chance to submit the necessary papers.

Lat but not the least, my thesis. I’m still having a hard time choosing the title I’ll love to work on. Of course, I have ideas in my head already but I’m still having second thoughts to what project I’ll pursue.

School will be tough this last year of student life, and everybody has to fight tough too, if they want a taste of having a degree after four years. My mind doesn’t seem to work now, and I’m way past my time for work. Have to say bye-bye…..

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Everybody was in a big fuss yesterday, even me myself. There was a nasty SMS circulating, saying something which one can find so offensive. Whether the content of the SMS was true or not, it is still a very conspicuous attempt to defame someone. Just when I thought that I lost the respect of everybody, this was also the time I found who my true friends are.. And they deserve to be recognized.

"Muzta na nang?gwapa japon?? bout sa imo gtx gbii, kinsa diay to xa?ayw nto hun-hunaa okie?" -El Jim Sanico

"Yaw paapekto para dughan ra niya ang mgsakit" -Ellen Navarro

"Wla xa kaila sa imu, para mkaingon xa samuha ug ingato" -Dearly Toro-toro

"Kung unsa man, tabangan tika yawyaw" - Ronald Borla

"Tabangan ka namo, cath" - April Kwong

"Insecure ra to cath, yaw na to icpa.. naa sa imu among force!! go cathy, it’s our battle.. one team, one course and one yr gud ta!! yaw paapekto..sa mga impakto!!" - Krixxia Mair Diaz

"Hai dai, ayaw paapekto,, dont wori, kaagapai mo kami.." - Maricor Ruado

"Sagdii na to, ke insecure ra" - Siegfred Mark Soco

"Stand up for what you believe in.. naa lng mi sa imong likod, dli manlibak pero mutabang" - Jopal Matthew Dumanig

"u dont have to xplain maski kinsa..coz ur real frenz wont beliv it..tapos ang dili ganahan nimo kay dili pud mutuo sa imong xplanaxon..yaw na ug kawori..liv in such a way dat no1 wil beliv it..ü" - March Dawn Eder

I give you my kudos and loyalty. - Catherine

 You’ll always remain as my sweetest memory..
Which any pain can’t deny
You’ll always be a part of me
In your love, I find my happiness
In your eyes, answers seem meaningless
‘Cause I have always found my heaven
In your warmest care, your truest love
Even if circumstances drift us apart..
You’ll always have a place in me..
In every corner, i see your presence..
Thank you for the times you loved me.
Eventhough it didn’t last forever
At least, At some point, I called you MINE