CATHastrophic Mediocrity

I still have at most three hours in this office for today. And I’ve finished the tasks given by my most considerate boss. I tried to be a little bit more ‘makulit’ in asking more tasks from him because my afternoon will be a sure bore if he won’t give me. And now, I’m pounding on my keyboard because he didn’t give me any. Darn!! We’re both to end our service here in this company by next week. He’s off to finding a new job, and I’ll start getting busy with school. Although he may be annoying sometimes, we’re both getting fond of kidding each other. But anyway, I’m not here to talk anything ’bout him.

Before I drift away from my objective in this entry, let me tell you that lately, I’ve been thinking what I did last May 19. I simply can’t remember what happened that day that someone here just kept on jesting me about it. It made me think of my attitude, my vice - forgetfulness, or temporary loss of memory. Hmmm?? It’s the thing that I love least in me(can’t dare to say I hate it because it’s still me and myself I’m talking about). So I thought of trying to squeeze out my brain in trying to remember at least twenty mistakes I love doing over and over again because I always forget that I’m not supposed to do it again. (Lately, I’m having trouble of keeping my introduction short.) Here goes…

1. I always remind myself to clean my study desk and keep my files in order, but I always forget. The pile in my desk may be at least two weeks old before I get the chance to clean it.
2. I keep a list of Things-to-do but I always lose it and my schedules and tasks become a jumble.
3. I always forget to turn off the lights in the comfort room everytime I go out.
4. I always forget to add salt in my sunny-side-up and kinilaw (but I still love it).
5. I always forget that I’m boiling water for the thermos, and I go straight to bed. Luckily, someone else always turns off the stove for me.
6. I always forget that I’m supposed to rise at six to avoid traffic.
7. I always forget to sleep by 9:30 and get an early rest.
8. I always forget to set a meeting for the orgs in days I reserved for them.
9. I always forget to return calls and reply in my received SMS.
10. I always forget to send important correspondence, and my load runs out before I have the chance to remember.
11. I always forget to set my own personal deadlines to follow my own resolutions.
12. I always forget I’m not supposed to tell personal truths to anyone I don’t know if I can trust.
13. I always forget to choose people who I’ll give my trust to.
14. I always forget that forgiveness shouldn’t be given that easily when someone says a simple sorry.
15. I always forget to set a demarcation line in my guy’s freedom, and I always end up crying because of another failed relationship.
16. I always forget that I should strive to be perfect but I should not be.
17. I always forget that I’m human and prone to mistakes, hurt, and imperfection physically, mentally and emotionally.
18. I always forget to let my emotions flow, feel it, and go over with it. Move on.
19. I always forget to love myself first in every thing I do, and let that love be felt by others too.
20. Lastly, I always forget to be who I am, and who I want to be.

Let’s see. I think I spent a good hour trying to remember all these things. And maybe someday, I’ll learn how not to forget and remember all that I’m supposed to remember. (Where are my thoughts getting me to?) Don’t worry. One of these days, I’ll tell you what are those that I love most about myself and the world. Maybe, my thoughts are not in order today, because of this boredom. Ciao..