Questions
After our routinary week-end badminton drills, we had our lunch in IT Park. I just don’t know why their voices were vague, and I don’t seem to understand what they were saying. It’s like sitting next to someone who exists in another dimension. I felt like I was alone drifting in space.
Someone asked me "だいじょうぶですか。(Are you ok?)". I said "はい。（Yes)." I don’t know why sometimes I prefer to say "YES" even when I really mean "NO". And why sometimes I choose to keep my mouth shut even when answers are all laid down infront of me.
When we were young, we asked simple questions. Even though how simple it may sound, the adults still can’t give us an answer. "Why is the sky and the ocean blue?""Why do I see my own self in the mirror?" "Why do each flower smell so unique from all the rest?" It’s amazing how a child sees things differently from an adult’s perspective.
I am not a kid anymore. Neither am I considered an adult although I am at legal age. I’ve gone through the stage of asking those kind of questions. And begin dreaming and asking what the future might hold for me.
And still, I don’t know how to understand the complexity of things. Can life be just simple enough for us to survive? Or are we humans entirely responsible for this because we have the heart and the mind to perceive things more than what they really mean? Or is it because we have the will to choose what we believe in?
Are dreams only for those who sleep? Does anyone have to believe in dreams? Do they hold false hopes for an impossibility, or can it lead someone to a realization? And when do dreams become nightmares?
When a person dies, do all things he worked for also get buried six-feet under the ground? Are successes and failures just part of someone’s personal fancy until that person have to surrender everything when he longer owns the body he just borrowed? What is life then? What for? When in the end, lives become dust.
When a person chooses a religion, in the end of time, whose god will claim true their promises of salvation? I am not an atheist nor a faith defender. But I sometimes wonder who will be saved.
Maybe I am asking stupid questions, but I was thinking, if I myself makes life a bit more complicated for me alone. When choosing between "YES" or "No" is a very difficult thing to do, how much more difficult it would be to find the answers to my questions?
I read your post here and this is what I said…
Take care…!!!
Comment by pvegetah — August 24, 2009 @ 6:36 am
I’ve read all your post here Cath..
Just take care there…
Comment by pvegetah — August 24, 2009 @ 6:39 am
hi cat!
日本語が旨くなったね。どこに働いているの？
asa na ka karon cat? anyway juz dropping by to say hi
またね
Comment by chi — August 26, 2009 @ 7:59 am
日本語があまり上手じゃない。いつもわすれた。とてもたいへんね。セブに働きいる。会社のお客様は日本人ですから、日本語を勉強している。
papasa na?? hehehe…
Comment by cathchix — August 26, 2009 @ 1:14 pm
成程。。いいね！日本語が上手いですよ。
僕も大学で卒業した後にセーブに働いていましたよ。会社はNECでした。
可愛いCathyの会社は？
Comment by chi — August 31, 2009 @ 4:34 am
advanced world systems,inc. 今、わたしはまだ研修しています。研修は１０月でおわります。
Comment by cathchix — August 31, 2009 @ 4:48 am
わかった。じゃ、がんばってね！お疲れ様
Comment by chi — September 1, 2009 @ 8:01 am