CATHastrophic Mediocrity

Homesick..

The boring weekend passes so slowly. I barely can guess time. I’m alone here in my room - the fellows just went home after two more movies this morning. Yes. I did enjoy the pajama party we had last night after sleeping half way through the movies. Ugly Truth is a waker, but what’s wrong with Harry Potter? I’m not much of a Potter fan really. After uploading pics and trying to clear up many months’ worth of spoils and toil, I gave up. I’m really not in the mood of trying to keep my patience longer.

I am simply feeling alone. I miss my mom, and dad. my sister, and my bro. I am wondering wha’s happening with them now. I do miss them really. I can’t wait to spend the next holidays with them this December.

I miss my boyfriend but i guess I have to wait for February 2010 before I got to see him again. He just told me he’s probably spending his Christmas and New Year vacatino somewhere in Manila - family reunion he said. I’m dying to see him really. We just had our anniversary earlier this month but we were not able to spend it together. I guess I spent most of our one year without having to see him for months.

I miss my barkada - ElJim, Mark Greggo, Noli, Pangz, and the rest of the gang. I juz miss them really. They promised to cook me my favorite corned beef combo when I get back. Jim promised me that he’ll wait by our house’ gate to be the first one to greet me when I get back. And he’ll take me to places I want to. He’s my bestffriend, dammit! That’s why he knows everything that can make me happy. My barkada treated me like a princess that’s why I really miss them..

I wanna go home and have fun with this guys…

I’m missing you desperately…

Pa Ma,

Luvs

Manoy

Mark

Noli……

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The boring weekend passes so slowly. I barely can guess time. I’m alone here in my room - the fellows just went home after two more movies this morning. Yes. I did enjoy the pajama party we had last night after sleeping half way through the movies. Ugly Truth is a waker, but what’s wrong with Harry Potter? I’m not much of a Potter fan really. After uploading pics and trying to clear up many months’ worth of spoils and toil, I gave up. I’m really not in the mood of trying to keep my patience longer.

I am simply feeling alone. I miss my mom, and dad. my sister, and my bro. I am wondering wha’s happening with them now. I do miss them really. I can’t wait to spend the next holidays with them this December.

I miss my boyfriend but i guess I have to wait for February 2010 before I got to see him again. He just told me he’s probably spending his Christmas and New Year vacatino somewhere in Manila - family reunion he said. I’m dying to see him really. We just had our anniversary earlier this month but we were not able to spend it together. I guess I spent most of our one year without having to see him for months.

I miss my barkada - ElJim, Mark Greggo, Noli, Pangz, and the rest of the gang. I juz miss them really. They promised to cook me my favorite corned beef combo when I get back. Jim promised me that he’ll wait by our house’ gate to be the first one to greet me when I get back. And he’ll take me to places I want to. He’s my bestffriend, dammit! That’s why he knows everything that can make me happy. My barkada treated me like a princess that’s why I really miss them..

I wanna go home and have fun with this guys…

I’m missing you desperately…

Pa Ma,

Luvs

Manoy

Mark

Noli……

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It’s Vacation

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It will be a long vacation. And I am planning to do the following:

update my blogs. Been gone for a long time. Barely had the chance to do my favorite hobby of bloghopping. This was my first means of earning income but I think it would be very impossible because of work. But now I’m enjoying my nature of work now, IT and Research.
already started viewing my way-back college videos. The guys were so funny doing their MTV Spoof skits. And my classmates’ documentaries of our college lives.
Maybe tomorrow, I’ll upload more pics in my picasa.
After this post, I’ll be heading my way to the office to meet a friend. I’ve missed the feeling of going out with a girl and doing the usual girl stuff.
Window shopping.. There’s nothing more devastating than having to endure peeping into windows of stores going "ON SALE"
Bookstorehopping - I invented that word. I just love books. Fully Booked is a good way to start.
Movie marathon in a pajama party for two - well yes. I’ll be left alone here tonight so i think a pajama party with a girlfriend is not a bad idea.
Lastly, shred all unnecessary papers piled up at the top of the closet. Hehe.. That’s worth 5 months of hard work stuck at my room.

And so this is the end. Have a friend to meet…..

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I’m Back

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Hi, peeps… I’m back to the outside world…..

See yah all…

Plainly excited….

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あたしはとてもうれしい。。。。

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I am so happy today..

わたし　は　とても、　とても　うれしいです！！！！

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Messages

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-I’ll mend your heart some other time (Don)

-The only person who deserves you is the one who sticks by your side no matter how much you mess up, someone who will forgive you mistake after mistake; someone like Jesus. (Leonard)

-No man will ever claim you unless he claims you from Me. For I reserved a man for you, who has my heart and loves me more than he loves you. For I won’t give you unless he asks you from Me. He’s asleep, don’t wake him; he’s busy for Me, for my Kingdom. Soon you will know him,but in my perfect timing. You’re my princess, My daughter, let no prince claim you unless he asks you from my hand, for I am your Father, the King of kings. You my princess is worth waiting for you. I love you! Jesus (Ishi)

-It is impossible to live without failing at something unles you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all -in which case you fail be default - Excerpt from the Little Prince (Ishi)

-Let me share this with you… A guy who truly loves a girl does not need to unbutton her shirt to have a better view of her heart. (Siegfred Mark)

-A simple thought to ponder: If someone wants to be a part of your life, they’ll make an effort to be in it. (Nald)

-One sad irony of self is - we always know what’s right for others while there are certain wrong things we pursue on our own. (Florence)

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Nihongo Business Presentation

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I’m in the middle of studying development of installers for the ongoing project. And since we were given privilege to have a 5min break I might just as well update this blog. We had our Nihongo Business Presentation last September 2, 2009. It was fun really, to be speaking in a foreign yongue trying to convince customers with our product. And guessed what? We grabbed the topmost prizes. Omedetou, minna!(おめでとう、みんな！)

the gang..

My Team..

Me and the busy world..

My bestfriend and teammate

Jedo, Jufu, Tifu and Kyasu

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POEM0.1

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I don’t need someone who wants a different ‘ME’

I need to be loved by someone for who I am.

Someone who knows how to embrace my lapses

To fill in the gaps of my imperfections.

Someone who looks forward to who I want to be..

Not to who he wants me to be.

I need someone who would forgive me,

Mistake after mistake..

And never ceases to see the true ‘ME’

I need someone who understands my silence

Silence that means beyond words can say

I don’t need someone giving lame promises of forever

I just need to be loved true while he’s still MINE

Someone who would tell me "I love you"

And really mean it..

I don’t need to be the most important,

I just want to be loved true.

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Maasin Outing

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Below are one of the pictures we had when we went to Maasin, Leyte. See for yourself.

By the dim-lighted shore

Itsura ko after the rainy dance by the beach

Nakamoto Sensei and the peeps

The sea can be viewed from the shrine (after making morethan a hundred steps.) You can see Mindanao on the left side and Bohol on the other side. Sugoi!!

Enjoying the sunlight by the seashore!

Minna(everyone) at high!

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Questions

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After our routinary week-end badminton drills, we had our lunch in IT Park. I just don’t know why their voices were vague, and I don’t seem to understand what they were saying. It’s like sitting next to someone who exists in another dimension. I felt like I was alone drifting in space.

Someone asked me "だいじょうぶですか。(Are you ok?)". I said "はい。（Yes)." I don’t know why sometimes I prefer to say "YES" even when I really mean "NO". And why sometimes I choose to keep my mouth shut even when answers are all laid down infront of me.

When we were young, we asked simple questions. Even though how simple it may sound, the adults still can’t give us an answer. "Why is the sky and the ocean blue?""Why do I see my own self in the mirror?" "Why do each flower smell so unique from all the rest?" It’s amazing how a child sees things differently from an adult’s perspective.

I am not a kid anymore. Neither am I considered an adult although I am at legal age. I’ve gone through the stage of asking those kind of questions. And begin dreaming and asking what the future might hold for me.

And still, I don’t know how to understand the complexity of things. Can life be just simple enough for us to survive? Or are we humans entirely responsible for this because we have the heart and the mind to perceive things more than what they really mean? Or is it because we have the will to choose what we believe in?

Are dreams only for those who sleep? Does anyone have to believe in dreams? Do they hold false hopes for an impossibility, or can it lead someone to a realization? And when do dreams become nightmares?

When a person dies, do all things he worked for also get buried six-feet under the ground? Are successes and failures just part of someone’s personal fancy until that person have to surrender everything when he longer owns the body he just borrowed? What is life then? What for? When in the end, lives become dust.

When a person chooses a religion, in the end of time, whose god will claim true their promises of salvation? I am not an atheist nor a faith defender. But I sometimes wonder who will be saved.

Maybe I am asking stupid questions, but I was thinking, if I myself makes life a bit more complicated for me alone. When choosing between "YES" or "No" is a very difficult thing to do, how much more difficult it would be to find the answers to my questions?

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